I miss it.
Re-reading old journals can be bad for you. Makes no difference if they belong to you or someone that you love.
Now I'm thinking back to 2004ish. The year that saw my relationship with Robert in it's final diteriation, me going back to McDonalds after a failed stint as a door to door salesgirl, a fleeting, yet enjoyable, relationship with Vic, the beginning of me and Drew, and the apartment with Heather.
It was a big year, and I miss those times. However, you could not pay me to re-live most of them...
'Cept for me and Drew starting new. Gods, those are times that I cherish and wish I could have over and over again.
Had my yearly "Well Woman" exam today...
I feel so violated.
Home is where your stuff is...
...and soon my stuff will be in a new place! We're moving to a new apartment right on Wyoming and Grand. It's really nice... all hardwood floors, central air, nice layout... I can't wait! It's going to be Andrew, my mom, and myself. We're also going to be within walking distance to Moke's, Pho Grand, Coffee On Grand, and lotsa other neat places.
We move in beginning of March, yippie!
We've been getting flurries off and on all day. Kinda wishing that it would go ahead and snow already... which is wierd. I usually hate snow.
*sigh* Been kinda down about my whole self image thing. The fact that I haven't lost any weight lately isn't helping. Drew's making effort to eat healthier, so I'm hoping that motivates me to do that with him. Last time we went grocery shopping I made a point of buying healthy snakage. I hope I can get back into the habbit.
I was talking to Drew the other day about the fact that I miss having a sense of style. He didn't get it, which is no surprise... He tries, but there's so many of my self doubt things that he just dosen't understand. Anywho... I was thinking that I used to make a serious effort to look presentable and somewhat cute. Now I'm lucky if I remember to put on makeup and tweeze my eyebrows... and clothing wise I'm even more casual than I used to be. I've never been a real dressy girl, but now I'm strictly jeans and plain, baggy tops. Mainly cus nothing that I deem "cute" looks good on me anymore.
After high school I lost a shitload of weight, and I thought I was looking really good. Then, almost right after I for married I gained all the weight back, and then some. I'm embarrassed when people that I haven't seen in a while meet up with me again. I can almost feel them thinking "Gawd, what happened to her?"
I suposse I'm being overly paraniod.
But, we're looking into new apartments right off of South Grand. There's two that we're looking into, both are right within walking distance to Moke's, Cheep Trx, and plenty of yummy (not too fattening) places to eat. I love that neighborhood and I know that I'll do more walking around if I'm closer to the places that I love to be.
2007 Survey (From Jess)
1. Will you be looking for a new job?
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
3. New house?
I hope so!
4. What will you do differently in '07?
Go back to school
5. New Year's resolution?
To get back into school
6. What will you not be doing in '07?
Waking Drew up for class
7. Any trips planned?
8. Wedding plans?
9. Major thing on your calendar?
10. What can't you wait for?
11. What would you like to see happen?
Us getting a house, me back in school by the summer semester, more tattoo work getting started.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
13. What happened in '06 that you didn't think would?
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
I don't think I'm all that mean in the first place.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did?
Not that I can think of, but you never know.
16. Will you quit drinking?
17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
18. Will you do charity work?
Not unless you count putting a dollar in the Salvation Army bucket, but even that's pushing it.
19. Will you go to bars?
Maybe a couple.
20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
I will try, if only for the sake of my gainful employment.
21. Do you expect '07 to be a good year for you?
22. How much did you change from this time last year?
I"m sure I did, I just can't think of how.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
*sigh* Not yet.
24. Will you still be friends with the same people?
I certanly hope so!
25. Major lifestyle change?
26. Will you be moving?
I certanly hope so!
27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in '07?
28. What are/were your New Year's Eve plans?
Going to Coty's... and I ended up doing just that. So there.
29. Will/did you have someone to kiss at midnight?
*sigh* No, we were in two diffent places. 30. One wish for '07?
A better, happier me.
First blog of 2007
Happy new year, everyone! I hope you all had fun.
I went to a party at Coty's place. It was pretty cool. Not as many people as we were anticipating showed up, but that was just fine with me, seeing that I'm semi antisocial. I wish that Drew would have come with me, but he's even more antisocial than I am, so he stayed at home with Mom watching Marx Brother's movies... still a good plan if you ask me...
So, Drew and I decided to spend a little money lately. I replaced my copy the Smashing Pumpkins Mellon Collie and the Infinate Sadness (my copy was scratched to bad that the last few songs on both disc's were pretty much unlistenable---NOT COOL, KIDS!), so I've been re listening to that like crazy. I also got Courtney Love's book, Dirty Blonde... I haven't had much chance to read alot of it yet, but I've enjoyed the bits that I've seen.
I also got my excited little hands on the Dresden Dolls Paradise DVD!!! *bounce* *bounce* I loooove it! Live preformance, naked Amanda and Brian, behind the scenes stuff, music video's, NAKED AMANDA AND BRIAN!!!
Now I just need to get ahold of Dita Von Teese's book and my material urges will be silenced for a while.
Life's good, kids.